A year of writing.

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I have been blogging for one year.

I have been writing regularly and purposefully for one year.

How am I changed by this?

What have I learned?

Well.

That I like short, pithy sentences? That I like the word pithy?

Be serious! This is important!

I know that. This has been one of the most important 12 months of my life, really and truly, and I’ll tell you why: I finally started to live my life the way that I wanted to, the way that I needed to.

Don’t ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”  

~ Howard Thurman

 

Now maybe there are people out there that have always known what they are supposed to be doing, who just go ahead and get on with it. No second guessing their purpose, no trying to squeeze it into a safe box, no laziness or justification or blaming. These people listen to their guidance, they have faith, they go with the flow, they are authentic, they are ON TARGET.

Friends, for most of my life, that has not been me.

A friend of mine, Lisa Carr, a friend, let me tell you, that I only know through blogging (and later facebook), describes our time here as going to Earth School. I like this description very much, because it puts our time here in perspective: I am 37 years old. In the last 12 months, I think I finally grew up. I took responsibility for my own life. I looked at my frustration, at my complaining, at my resistance to what is, and I said to myself: this is your Life, what are you going to do with it? What do you like to do, what do you need to be fulfilled, to be happy, to be authentic, to be fully and awesomely you?

Well, firstly, I said to myself, a little firmly, because I need a firm hand, I need to write. 

Okay. You need to write. What, creatively or for a living?

Both. Any and all of it. 

Well, that’s do-able. Enroll in a couple of courses and start a blog why don’t you?

So I did.

Okay, so I am condensing a three month conversation into one of those short, pithy sentences I love, but you get the picture. Now what?

I need my own space. I am so desperate for my own space, I am nearly mad from it.

Your own space. What do you want to use this space for?

I want a sacred space, a space that is just mine, where I can do yoga and meditate and just be me. 

Voila! Events unfolded in such a way that I had my own sacred space, for the first time since I…well, ever.

Okay, so you are writing, studying and you have your own space. What now?

I want to improve my yoga practice. I want to be more disciplined in my practice, I want to be stronger, more flexible and braver.

Voila! A chance encounter with Kara-Leah Grant and her book 40 Days of Yoga led me into…40 Days of Yoga. Using writing, my new space and the 40 days practice, I created a daily yoga practice for myself – and went on a voyage of self discovery. I learnt things about myself that I didn’t know, and emerged a more authentic, disciplined version of myself.

Discipline is the act of showing up for what you love.

Why do we have to discipline ourselves to do the things that we love? I discovered during this process that spending time doing things that benefit nobody except for myself creates guilt, anxiety and worry. Pffft. So what? Do it anyway.

I felt like I was on a bit of a roll, now. The world was opening up for me: I had some work come my way that used my new skills, I expanded my sacred space to include a bed and an office, and work finally began on our long awaited house extensions. My youngest child went to school, giving me the gifts of time and solitude. I started going to a monthly writer’s group and working on my creative writing skills. When doubt, guilt, anxiety and worry set in, I embarked on 40 days of writing. I am still writing every day.

Finally, I am creating and crafting my world, deliberately and consciously. I pay attention, I am grateful, I work with what I have, I am patient. I wait for things to unfold, rather than taking matters into my own hands (think of a bud opening in its own time compared to a blundering idiot attempting to open each petal one by one. Yep. That blundering idiot was me.)

Perfect I am not. I still get worried, anxious and guilty. I still lose focus, become distracted and unmotivated. I still get impatient, irritated and angry. But not for long. I know myself so much better this year, now that I am all grown up, and I am less and less likely to let my ‘little’ me call the shots. Anyway, it doesn’t feel good.

And this miraculous 12 months started with blogging. Writing cleared a space in my mind, quietened my mind chatter and enabled action.

Carl Jung

Lastly, I want to thank you, my readers. I write firstly for myself, but I also write in the hope that my words can make a difference.  This year you have supported me, a beautiful few have become my friends, and that has held me and sustained me.

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18 thoughts on “A year of writing.

  1. Kara-Leah Grant

    Awesome post Sara. What an amazing year you’ve had, all because of YOU. Congratulations!!

    Klx

    iPhonin’ it, excuse brevity.

  2. Dearest Sara. You’ve sucked me into WP!!*:)))
    I just love being a fellow traveler with you.
    Congratulations on your awakening *:)))I I hope to be able to say all the same things in one year’s time*:)
    Xoxoxo
    Lis

  3. What a great reflection post! I think a lot of us bloggers go into blogging without too much expectations and as a result, are completely blown away by what a journey it becomes on a personal level. I’m so glad to have met you on the WP blogosphere and it’s been a great ride so far, reading about your experiences. Here’s to another great year of blogging!

    • Cheers Lillian! I had no idea what I was getting myself into, I mean no idea. at. all :) So glad the inspiration came my way, and still keeps coming my way. Thanks for all of your support, it’s been wonderful getting to know you xx

  4. Lakshmi Loves To Shop

    Wow…12 months of blogging! How fantastic…I love reading your view on life…I look forward to following the next 12 months with you :-)

  5. Sarah, congrats! I remember the posts you referred to and have always loved your inspiring posts about love, peace and reflection. So happy that you are on a wonderful journey and look forward to reading more about it. Be well and thank you again for your uplifting posts.

  6. Yes! I know it seems like you have been doing a whole other life…. and you have. this is one of the many stages we all re-invent ourselves. The Sara you have thus far experienced is rich and full and energetic also… I expect we will see a more creative and wordy version of the Goddess as she unfolds herself to herself…

    • Everyone, this is my Mum. It is because of this woman and her inability to look at life the same way as everybody else does, that I am the person I am today. She consistently thinks I am one of the most awesome people to ever walk the planet – her self belief helps me believe in myself. Thanks Mum, I love you!

  7. Rufina

    Your blog is so young, but yet it seems so “old” (as in wise, insightful, inspirational, courageous), and that comes from living the way you do. You think, you decide, you do. And the earth moves under your feet. So much so, I can actually feel it over here…;)

    • I actually laughed out loud when I read your comment Rufina – snorted probably :) Alex my partner, says similar things about me, but not always in such a complimentary fashion – like when I move, get out of my way…:). Thank you so much for your wonderful support and friendship over the past year, you are fabulous!

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