A Slow Start

Artist: Jekaterina Razina
Artist: Jekaterina Razina

My head this morning
filled with white noise
churning, burning, yearning.

Self care: I do yoga.
Open, close, stretch and hold –
In and out, follow the breath.

But still, my neck is tight,
corded, stiff. My shoulders
bunched, too close to my ears.

Self care: I do morning pages.
I scrawl, my pen tears up the pages:
I, you, we, no, want, what? Fuck you!

I tend to my family: meals made,
bag packed, hair done, beds made,
house tidied, washing done.

Self-care: I walk.
A magpie changes my direction
towards a way less travelled.

The sun warms my bare arms
my legs feel strong and sturdy.
Everything is different yet the same.

I pack the coffee in the pot
and while it bubbles, I write down
the words that came to me while I walked.

And I notice, all of a sudden:
the Silence.
And now, finally, my day can begin.


Some days have slower starts than others, yes? :)

What is your self care routine when things are all upside down and back to front?



  1. This piece makes me long for my usual morning routine which, by coincidence, also involves morning pages, yoga, and a walk. But the summer’s chaotic charms have done a thorough job of keeping me from my happy rituals.

    Mostly, I find that what I crave is space – time to breathe and wander, moments of quiet solitude with no agenda. My days are a constant churn of tasks, appointments, deadlines, and duties. I do not feel unhappy so much as unmoored. I cherish the extra time with my daughter, but I do miss time with myself.

    Lovely poem, and the image is beautiful.


    • “Summer’s chaotic charms” :) Yes, beautifully said. I find that a similar thing happens to me in summer – at first gratefully, because it is good to let go of the routines of the rest of the year – and then grudgingly, because those routines were what kept us sane and anchored to ourselves :) I guess we need the beauty of both! And we writers – well, we just have an appetite for our own company that needs feeding every day – confounding those who are not wired like that. What can I say? It’s not up for debate :) Thank you for popping by Jamie.


    • Yes…:) I also find that poetry and meditation do it for me (as well as yoga and meditation). I think the most important thing is that we know what to do to bring us back to ourselves. I have a list of positive practices that I can use, and no matter how I bad I feel they always work.


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