Structure and discipline. What?

So, as many of you will know, both of my children are at school this year for the very first time. I had big plans and expectations (damn you expectations!) as to how this year would look, mostly along the lines of massively increased productivity and freedom.

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Yeeeessssss.

I am not sure how or why, but for some reason I am less productive than when the Fairy Queen was at home – or if not less productive, then certainly nowhere near as effective. I haven’t even been able to fit in a daily yoga practice!

I have been becoming more and more frustrated with how my days seem to be evaporating with nothing to show for them – unless you count a flourishing facebook conversation and a clean feng shui’d house! Not that there’s anything wrong with either of those things…but.

My inner boss gave me an absolute pasting the other day. You need to be more disciplined and structured. Resistance! I want to be free and unrestricted! But you don’t get anything done! Hmmmm you have a point…but I still want to be able to flow with the day rather than putting rigid restrictions and timetables on my day – I have had to train myself out of that! Well, you need to find a middle way. Get on it. 

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The more I thought about it, the more I went around in circles, getting nowhere. So I decided to stop thinking about it, and hand my problem over to the Divine (as Tosha Silver talks about in her amazing book Outrageous Opennessor God, or the Angels or your guides or the universe or your higher self or whatever you want to call it . That night as I lay down in bed, I told the Divine (or whoever was listening) my problem, and asked for help in solving it. Clearly, I saw an image of myself getting up early (like I normally do), going over to the cottage (like I normally do) and then not turning on the computer :). Instead, I lit some candles and an incense stick, sat down on my cushion and began to breathe.  That’s it. Just breathe. I needed to get in touch with myself and the flow of the day and let that connected, grounded self plan my day. And then I needed to ask myself, what do you want to do next?

That first day, what my connected, grounded self wanted to do next was yoga. After that, I switched on the computer – but I had a completely different head space! I got the kids ready for school, whizzed around the house, hung some washing out – and then did more on my assessment in one morning than I had done in the previous 2 weeks. I had to go over to the school that afternoon to listen to the children read in the afternoon, but I had gotten a whole day’s work done in the morning, so it didn’t matter!

The second day, today, my connected grounded self wanted to do yoga, and then start writing this blog. By 2 pm I have managed to finish my assignment and send it in, do a bit of work for an event I am helping to plan, write and publish this blog, as well as do the housework, plan dinner and play on facebook – and there is still plenty of day left.

Was it starting the day with yoga? Was it starting the day grounded and connected? Was it all of the above?   I don’t know, but I can tell you this:

  1. Some problems cannot be thought through with the mind because they are caused by the mind.  

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2. We get into ruts, all of us and we fool ourselves into thinking that these ruts are helping us. They are not.

3. There is a lot to be said about our morning routines and rituals and how they contribute to our whole day.

Have you ever had this problem? What did you do about it?

This post was inspired by this article.

10 comments

  1. Sara, I love that quote by Einstein! I find time getting away from me as well. I have made a conscious effort to put forth to God/Universe that I’m willing to go forward into what I’m supposed to do. It is a good time for me, many changes and work has come to a standstill. I go to the gym nearly everyday. I just got the book, The Artist’s Way, after it being mentioned to me over the last few weeks by different people saying — This sounds like you or You should read this. I figure there’s a reason for that.

    Love this post and I believe many of us can resonate. I get up thank my Creator for my blessings, health and the day and then try to be still for a while. It’s difficult but I think anything worth doing always is!

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    • The Artist’s Way! I loved that book. It was probably the first self help book I ever read, and the morning pages that she uses as a tool to process our crap, are gold. I still use that process when I get stuck. I thought that this would be something that lots of people would resonate with; I’m glad you enjoyed it 🙂

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    • Hey Lis, so happy to have a little visit from you! A little bit of structure, some intuition and heaps of flexibility – I think it’s the key 🙂 Yoga? Of course you will 🙂

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  2. Sara, I so needed to hear all this because I’ve been feeling stuck in a rut myself lately, unable to do any writing or much else of anything productive. I think I’ll need to take a leaf out of your book and just be. And perhaps my yoga class tonight will help shift things up a bit. 🙂

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    • Maybe :). I think when a long-awaited change comes – or any kind of change really, it takes us a while to adapt to it. And I think we also think we are just going to move naturally into the change, when sometimes we actually need to use the gear stick and manually adjust some things.

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  3. The Artist’s Way has been sitting on my bookshelf for years, without being read. I will pull it down and crack it open…and the Tosha Silver book also looks great (where have I heard that name before?). I am about to take an electronic hiatus myself very soon…;)

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  4. I really try to get most of my jobs done in the morning too…as the afternoon seems to fly past 🙂 ps just off to walk the dog as I DIDN’T get him walked this morning…oh well…at least I’m trying…

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