You know you’re struggling when…

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Look, what can I say? Some days are harder than others. Mostly not because there is anything in that day to make it harder, but just because I’m not in the right head space. I started to get a feeling that I was struggling…

  • When we had a friend come to visit and the kids all but beg to go home with him. Thank the heavens, he took them 🙂
  • When the dog sees me she folds her ears down and fades into the shadows.
  • When I’m scraping caked on porridge out of breakfast bowls at 4:30pm.
  • When it takes a full 2 hours of meditation, yoga and music to ground, centre and pull my cranky self out of the funk I’ve landed in.
  • When I almost completely lose my sense of humour and any capacity for irony. God forbid someone tries to crack a joke, make a jibe or poke fun.
  • When I think I’ve got it sorted, and I’m starting to feel kinda normal, the least irritation sends me off the deep end. Again.

Sigh. Back to the drawing board.

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How do you know when you’re struggling?

14 comments

  1. 158 more words…..I can do that easy…..kids, blocked toilets, fire sparks….arrrrgh struggle when I don’t get time to myself.

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    • yep, struggle city alright. A bit of troublesome energy around the last few days. It was good to get away from home today. Kinda smokey…

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    • Yep, I totally take responsibility for it – it’s easier that way because that way I can sort the problem out if I know I’ve cause it. Still… 🙂 I hope you feel better today.

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  2. Obviously you know I’m also in the struggling stage at the moment although it’s gotten slightly better. It’s usually when my brain can’t seem to do anything but conjure up swear words that I know I’m starting to slip. And when I start online window shopping like crazy. Probably a defense mechanism to avoid the depth of the problem by indulging in shallow, materialistic pursuits. Hope you’re on the path to getting your funk back!

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    • Yep, I start to swear as well – cuss words leak out all over the place 🙂 And you know what – today was one of the best days I’ve had all month. I think getting it off my chest helped 🙂

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    • That’s a shame, because if you can’t trust your Self, who can you trust? Perhaps the thing is not to try to DO better, but just develop the habit of watching and being aware. It’s amazing the things you find out about yourself when you just watch xo

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