The golden theme from last week washed over into this week as well – the second week of the school holidays and the second week of my university degree. The week began with the Bello Winter Music Festival – a gorgeous folk and roots music festival born in Mullumbimby, but visiting Bellingen for the first time. It was a day where I was able to slip out of my mother/wife skin and frolic, clad only in my skin, free to fill up my own cup. A much loved friend with an insatiable appetite for fun, friendship and music suggested we go a couple of months ago, and oh my, I am so glad we did :). A whole day of live music – in 12 hours we saw six full performances – and I could feel a cup, long dry, fill up and overflow as I listened, watched and danced my way through that long, gorgeous winter’s day and night. At midnight when I at last tumbled wearily into bed, the Bear rolled over sleepily and muttered, “When is it, dawn? Bloody students.” 🙂
So, after that kind of start to my week, you’d think that I’d be totally inspired and in the flow, wouldn’t you? Well I was, but it appeared that nothing else was. I had heaps of energy, but the Universe kept putting the brakes on which frustrated the hell out of me and gave this week an impatient edge that has been difficult to shift. Example? I ordered a text book for my media subject a week before Uni started, on the 22nd June. I still haven’t received it.
It means that I can’t do my reading for my media subject, which in turn means that next week when the textbook finally comes, I’m going to have to do three weeks of reading in one week. The thought of this stresses me out. So yesterday, I’m hanging out a load of washing, thinking grumpy thoughts, when a question falls into my mind :
So, do you believe that all delay is Divine? Um, yes, I do.
And do you truly believe that everything happens in its own perfect time and that you are being looked after? Yes, I do!
Well then! Stop griping. Huh. I cast my mind back over what I had accomplished that day – instead of watching this week’s lecture, I had decided to push that into next week when hopefully I would have my textbook and instead focus on my assignments for both subjects, making really good progress on both of them. There was no reading set for my writing subject next week, because we have an assignment due – the one that I had just about finished. Hmmm. I don’t know why it’s been set up like this, but I’m prepared to go with it. It’s probably working out just perfect, as life tends to do when you get out of its way. 🙂
So in spite of my cranky, impatient brain it’s been a good week. We’ve spent heaps of time with loved ones, the kids have been kept busy and happy with loads of grandparent and farm time. Despite my missing textbook and the fact that it is school holidays, I have not only been able to keep up with my studies, but have thoroughly enjoyed everything about it.
Is there anything in your life that appears to be an inconvenience but may actually be a blessing?
- My new blog layout and logo <3. What do you think? I changed the theme on the spur of the moment last weekend, and like all good changes, wondered why I hadn’t thought to set my blog out like this before. Oh well :). This particular blog theme allows for a logo, and two days later I woke up with an image of my logo imprinted on my eye lids. It seemed simple enough to replicate, and although I am definitely not a graphic designer, I’m pretty happy with it. I’ve noticed from my stats that people are staying longer and having a good look around, which makes me happy 🙂
- This from Lao Tsu:
Rushing into action, one fails.
Trying to grasp things, we lose them.
Forcing a project to completion,
will ruin what was almost ripe.
Therefore the wise take action
by letting things take their course.
Remain as calm at the end
as at the beginning.
Attached to nothing,
there is nothing to lose.
The wisest desire is non-desire.
Learn to unlearn.
Simply remind people
of who they have always been.
Caring about nothing but the Tao,
one thereby cares for all things.
― Lao Tsu, Tao Te Ching
- This article from Danielle La Porte: Conscious Optimism vs Lazy, Pseudo-Spiritual Optimism. I can’t tell you how much I love the title of this piece, but in case it’s not enough to draw you in, here is her definition of service:
So that vision of the world we want to live in…it requires wide awake optimism to create it. Those lives “of service” so many of us are trying to live… Service is being informed. Service is being enraged. Service is keeping your heart open even when you’re enraged. Service is being ruthlessly honest about the facts — and then choosing to be optimistic. Service is fuelling your optimism with action. (And yes, meditation counts as action.)
The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion. – Albert Camus
- That I should never automatically assume that people will have the same reaction as I do. In my media tutorial this week, the teacher showed us a clip of four white policemen aggressively arresting a black man, taken by a passerby on their phone. I found it very disturbing and difficult to watch, as did most of the other students. Except for one, who said, “This film clip really didn’t bother me, maybe if the police around here were like that we wouldn’t have so many people hurting children or drug addicted people roaming the street.” I was so shocked that my mouth dropped open, and I just had to sit there for a moment, taking it in. Yes, because America’s police brutality has ensured that they have a safe, crime free country. Obviously. Interestingly, not one person replied directly to her comment except obliquely by saying that like most people on the forum, they were shocked and disturbed by the footage.
- About the nuts and bolts of crafting a story. We are focusing on travel writing because it gives us an opportunity to write in a non-fiction genre, but using the tools of fiction writing: character development, description, exposition, narrative voice, point of view, causation, story structure and theme. For this subject we have to write a short non-fiction travel story (1500 words) based on our own experiences, but there are two assignments that build up to this task so that we can show our understanding of the elements that make a good story. We also get to read all of these fascinating travel stories for our reading duties. Ha! Fun 🙂
- About how not to make assumptions about a person or a situation, jump to conclusions and then make decisions and actions based on those conclusions, all without talking to the person in question. I haven’t been guilty of this, at least in this particular week ;), but I have been watching people in my life do this, some who in particular who should know a lot better. This kind of behaviour makes makes me as mad as hell (oops, there’s that irritable frustration again) but like all button pressing things, also serves as a personal reminder. People, if you think a person has wronged you in some way, especially if they are someone important to you, like say, one of your siblings, children or parents, then for goodness sake, pay them the respect of talking to them about it. Never assume – because it makes an ass out of you and me, as a boss once told me 🙂 Odds are, you might find out there is much more depth to the situation then you thought, that you may have misunderstood, or even that there are two sides to every story. You know?
- In the same vein, just in case, like me, you need an extra reminder:
As you can see, I’m still feeling my way into how this blog will be looking and feeling. The living, loving, learning theme came to me in a moment of stillness while I was waiting for a friend in a cafe the other day, much like the logo idea. I love these little flashes of inspiration and know to pay attention to them. I have also decided to give what I’m writing a separate blog post during the week so that I can make it a feature. let me know what you like and what you don’t (gently ’cause I’m thin-skinned 🙂 ).
Have a beautiful weekend everyone <3.