Hello my neglected friends – I’ve missed you so much! Somehow with my second semester of Uni, end of year shenanigans and Christmas, time that I was able to put aside for writing (of any description) shrunk to zero. Apart from some scribbling in a journal, lecture notes, assignments and essays, my poor writing muse has been locked up in a cupboard filing her nails and biding her time until the whirlwind of life slowed down enough for me to hear her. In fact, she must have gotten a little impatient, because she rapped me sharply on my eyelids at 4am this morning and demanded that I get out of bed and write something here. I sat for a while, wondering what it was that she wanted me to write about, but apparently she just wants me to tell you all what’s been going on in my life, so here goes.
Well, let’s see.
- I’m on a week’s break (or so) from Uni, but I do have a 1500 word essay and an assignment to do in this time. This semester I have been studying English Literature and Philosophy, a dream come true :). The reading list for Eng. Lit. has been very time consuming…
- 12 poems
- 6 short stories
- 2 novels (Pride and Prejudice and Divisadero)
- 2 plays (The Crucible and Othello)
…but very enjoyable :). Philosophy is shockingly difficult and brain stretching in every possible way – but I love it, and I’ve done very well in the assessments so far, thank goodness.
- There have been some big endings this month. Not only has my son finished Primary school and is heading into High school in the new year, but we have decided to take our daughter out of our beloved village school and send her into the bigger school in our nearest town, around the corner from her brother. This was a very difficult and somewhat traumatic decision for the Bear and I, as we have been dedicated supporters of the school for many years. I could write a whole essay on our reasons for this decision, but I think the crux of it is that we all need a more expansive experience – my children for their schooling and me in terms of work and community. In addition, my work finished at the school – they don’t need a teacher’s aide next year for the amount of students they have. So…I’m looking for work as well!
- The Solstice/Christmas period has been perfect in every way: spending good, quality time with friends and family whom I adore, thoughtful gifts, lovely children, non-stressful preparation…perfect in every way except one: I broke two teeth just before Christmas. The first tooth (a molar) broke on the Solstice, and horrifyingly could not be repaired, so I had to have it taken out, with the promise of a $4000 implant procedure in the new year. That was bad enough, but another tooth broke on Christmas Eve, on the other side of my mouth, so of course I haven’t been able to get it looked at yet. This second tooth sent me into an absolute tail spin of anxiety (were all my teeth cracking and crumbling, like a bad dream? Was I cracking and crumbling under the pressure of the last couple of months? WTF was going on here?) So. I won’t bore you with the details, but I had to use all of my skills in self management to pull myself up out of that maelstrom to come to a place where I can look at the situation with some equanimity and understanding. Meanwhile, this is the first Christmas where I have actually lost weight lol :).
- Let me tell you about something awesome that I have been doing over the past few days: The 2016 Shining Year Workbook. You might remember me talking about this Workbook over this past year – I had bought a digital version in 2015 and worked on it via a GoodReader app on my iPad. It was good, but I wanted a hard copy for 2016, because the book is so visually beautiful. So, ever since the Solstice on the 22nd , I have been looking back over 2015, mining it for gold and just being so goddamn grateful for the amazing year that it was. Over the last few days, I have been working through the main body of the workbook, setting my intentions, goals and aspirations for the coming year. The workbook is separated into different sections: Creativity, Spirituality, Relationships, Mind, Body, Travel (and more) so that we can really drill down and get an image of what we want and need in each section of our lives. I am loving it so much.
- As an aside: this is an amazing section of time to set intentions and dream wonderful dreams. From the 25th December to the 5th of January, every single planet is out of retrograde and moving forward (in an astrological sense). Please, keep it positive, people. This is a very powerful time, and you want your thoughts and intentions heading upwards rather down, if you get my drift. Uranus, currently in Aries, that trickster planet of sudden changes, unexpected events and general freakishness lurched forward on Christmas Day. For me, it landed right on my Aries rising (head, face, appearance, personality) and a square to my Capricorn mid-heaven (career, work). It felt very disruptive to say the least! Combine that with a Cancerian full moon, also on Christmas Day, and my bet is that I wasn’t the only one that was dealing with some intense emotions, right?
So, my friends, I hope you are all well, and that you are all safely intact in mind, body and spirit. Let us raise our tea and coffee cups to 2016 and invite in peace, prosperity, inspiration and contributing to the higher good for humanity and our planet, wherever we are and whatever we are doing <3.
PS. Why is this post called Bloom? It is my word for 2016. As part of the workbook, we are asked to choose a word that matches our feelings about the coming year, and this word literally found me a couple of days ago. Bloom. If you had to choose a word for 2016, what would it be?